Julius Js

It's as if I have always known you;
I'm curious, do we look alike?
Do I have your smile, your eyes, your passion for life?
Do we talk the same way, walk the same way?
Do you long to hold me?
I long to hold you. Mother, where are you, I'm trying to find you.
There was love between you and my father, moonlight and magic, white sands with blue-green seas...nine months later you gave birth to me.
Moonlight and magic couldn’t make him stay, now Mother, where are you?
You went away.
Long ago and not so far away,
people said it wasn't right to keep your baby when there wasn't a wedding ring.
Seems that's what happened to you and me.
Now I'm stuck here in this lonely world with out you.
Days are long; I spend them looking for you.
Nights are spent dreaming of what could have been.
Oh, it would have been grand.
Mirrors flash back only uncertain reflections
Of not knowing who it is I really see.
Not your fault, it was the sign of the times.
How cruel this world can be-
You wanted a better life for us; for me
Did you not realize that there was enough love?
We could have made it.
We could have shown them all, no matter what the consequence.
There would have been no misery, no uncertainty, no sadness, no searching for a life that could have been.
Mother, where are you?
I'm trying to find you?

Family is who i look too when i need help.I expect i have parents to raise me up to care & love me, parent to always be there for me when the i am down. i feel that i'm not there child is just like i'm a adopted~!I feel abandoned.i feel abandoned and alone. In such a case, likely to feel sad, alone and angry.

Haiz yesterday nite i feel so moody...i don't know who else should i talk too...!

You gave me hope in every situation.You always told me that it'll always get better, that this will pass.You were the person i know always positive,you made every situation brighter by finding the upside,you always know just what to say but now, the hardest thing in the world is seeing that person i know, at their worst. It kills me to see you feel like this,and I can't help you.Let me tell you what you told me,there's always a bright side,you have strength in you that others search for on a daily basis.This pain will go away, trust me....I wish i had the same words you do to make it better for you,but all i can do is be there with you when you need me,remember what you told me, time heals everything,this won't break you, don't let it.
Don't turn into what i was...!

I am so unhappy my heart feels so in pain....can anyone help me to cured it! It's really feels very hurt just want to cry it out....

I am sad when i'm around you,I am sad with you always make me sad! will you ever make me feel more than sad? do I make you sad? All I know is you make me sad,will you ever love me? Even though you make me sad.!I still love you,so i am makeing myself a promise,i will never be sad again when your around....

Night View

Take my hand let me pull you away gotta catch my breath so many things to say can i trust you?It doesn't matter anymore get ready we're gonna barge into this war keep your eyes open this won't happen again release your mind let me carve with my pen
What's this? You'll never understand see that hole? It's my home-land listen intently to the silence around us we're in now please don't fuss as I pound against you with terror so sweet no one's here except one person I'd love you to meet this is Fear He's/She's the guardian you'll obey everyone's alone each night and day you'll be up wondering where you went wrong cowering away doesn't matter whether it's a woman or man you'll be like me now see? You're scared of me scared of the world that never cared that's what i am now i'm telling you now i'm letting go even though i don't know how there'll be consequences fear hates to be betrayed but there's no going back now my mind is made go on now leave before it's too late! I'm afraid i am afraid there's more than hate...........................