Julius Js

Haiz yesterday nite i feel so moody...i don't know who else should i talk too...!

You gave me hope in every situation.You always told me that it'll always get better, that this will pass.You were the person i know always positive,you made every situation brighter by finding the upside,you always know just what to say but now, the hardest thing in the world is seeing that person i know, at their worst. It kills me to see you feel like this,and I can't help you.Let me tell you what you told me,there's always a bright side,you have strength in you that others search for on a daily basis.This pain will go away, trust me....I wish i had the same words you do to make it better for you,but all i can do is be there with you when you need me,remember what you told me, time heals everything,this won't break you, don't let it.
Don't turn into what i was...!

I am so unhappy my heart feels so in pain....can anyone help me to cured it! It's really feels very hurt just want to cry it out....

I am sad when i'm around you,I am sad with you always make me sad! will you ever make me feel more than sad? do I make you sad? All I know is you make me sad,will you ever love me? Even though you make me sad.!I still love you,so i am makeing myself a promise,i will never be sad again when your around....

Night View

Take my hand let me pull you away gotta catch my breath so many things to say can i trust you?It doesn't matter anymore get ready we're gonna barge into this war keep your eyes open this won't happen again release your mind let me carve with my pen
What's this? You'll never understand see that hole? It's my home-land listen intently to the silence around us we're in now please don't fuss as I pound against you with terror so sweet no one's here except one person I'd love you to meet this is Fear He's/She's the guardian you'll obey everyone's alone each night and day you'll be up wondering where you went wrong cowering away doesn't matter whether it's a woman or man you'll be like me now see? You're scared of me scared of the world that never cared that's what i am now i'm telling you now i'm letting go even though i don't know how there'll be consequences fear hates to be betrayed but there's no going back now my mind is made go on now leave before it's too late! I'm afraid i am afraid there's more than hate...........................

Time slowly ticked past, the darkness inched closer and closer spreading its shadows across the land my inner self comes alive as much as i struggle and curl underneath the blanket,my fears come alive, and slowly engulfs me from the inside and tears up the mask that i so successfully put on during the day! fears that torment me from the inside during the day comes alive as soon the light fades away and i am back into my den with a mind of its own, tormenting me every single night sometimes i wished i was i was no born!yet isolated and alone i try to reach out to people but succeed in grasping just empty air! struggling to keep my sanity i plunge myself into darkness for its the only place to hide to cope with all this,i give up and cry myself to sleep!it’s tiresome to want something you don’t have and each morning i wake with loneliness by my side each day I walk with it’s presence in my footsteps each night it lies hand in hand with my insomnia perhaps i have become invisible? or have i become just an figment of imagination? they cried on my shoulders and i soaked up their tears asking for nothing in return, but when i need someone where did they all go................................???

I always tried to be contended with what i have,i know i dont deserve the things that make me happy,i never attempted to achieve them but still they keep revolving around as offering me the opportunity to grab them i ignored them knowing the reality that i can never have them in my life, but when you came in my world you made me realize myself i have always been saying this and i mean it too i want to see you happy wipe off all your burdens at least there is someone whom i adore, i praise have desire to spend my life in your arms.But i made a mistake this time i tried to touch the zenith and started to find its way forgetting the fact that i can never reach out there.My life is like a bird that loves the moon and is satisfied by having just a glimpse of its dim white light through a distance i dont have any complaints because i am well aware of the fact that its my destiny

Today is sunday what a wonderfull happy weekends but to bad i have to work...somemore in the evening it rains...until the night it rains again...feel so cold .....